🌄 Day 261/365
I’m leveling out. I think. I feel like I need to be working harder than I am. Art is my job again. After taking a week off due to unexpected health emergencies with my mom in California, I feel behind. I can’t afford to take time to process and adjust and get my head straight as I’d like. I still feel like I’m spinning. I don’t like to admit it (to myself) but I guess I’m feeling very fragile. Everything feels fragile. Life is fragile.
A sweet friend kindly pushed me out of my comfort zone (work, work, work!) yesterday to decompress at the beach. I resisted at first but later realized maybe that would actually help. Maybe beach therapy would help me process all the non-art stuff, so I could actually work again. A different friend once told me during one of my worst depressive episodes maybe a decade ago, “don’t melt away…” Which is what I was doing. It’s stuck with me. I do withdraw and I know it isn’t healthy. So I went to the beach. And of course it was lovely. There’s something (scientifically) about being near water that heals. Maybe the rhythm of the waves regulates the rhythms of our hearts. Maybe it gives us a calm-inducing breathing pattern to follow. Also having friends is something that’s affecting me deeply this past week. I have been showered in love and support.
I’m still completely stressed out but it means everything to know that I’m not alone.
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